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I went home immediately I
left the cafeteria. I didn’t
wait for the next lecture. I
was scared of what Sylvia
might say or do to me in class.
it would be very embarrassing
if she repeats what she did to
me at the park.
That same day, exactly 5:30pm,
my phone started ringing. I
picked the call when I realized
it was from Mustack.
“hello Mustack” I said
“how far guy. what happened?
you left the cafeteria without
telling me. I realized you were
no more in the cafeteria when
I looked back. why did you
leave?” he asked.
“I’m sorry bro. I was having
an upset stomach. I just have
to leave without telling you” I
said
I knew he didn’t buy that lie. I
just had to say it since I had
no other lie to tell him.
“okay, that was why you didn’t
attend the last lecture” he said
“yes” I responded
“have you taking anything
drug” he asked
“yes” I answered
“okay, take care of yourself. I
will call you later” he said
“okay” I responded.
I ended the call and dropped
my phone on my bed. Sharon
called immediately I dropped
my phone on my bed. I picked
the call after taking a deep
breath.
“hello Sharon” I said
“hello Christian, you didn’t
attend the last lecture. what
happened?” she asked
“I was not feeling too well. I
went home earlier.” I
responded
“is it that same headache?” she
asked
“yes” I answered
“I thought you took drugs” she
said
“yes I did” I responded
“maybe we should just
postpone our tutorial until
next week, so that you can
take care of yourself” she said
“okay, that would be nice.
thank you very much”
“I will call you later to check
on you” she said.
“okay, thanks”
I ended the call and lay on my
bed.
All through that week, I stayed
at home. I didn’t attend
lectures. I was scared of
meeting Sylvia. I was scared of
what she might say to me in
class.
Mustack, Sharon and Joy, all
called to know why I wasn’t
attending lectures and I lied to
them that I wasn’t feeling fine.
I made up my mind to call
Mustack. I need to know what
was Sylvia’s reaction when he
told her that I like her,
because I can’t keep missing
lectures. I waited until
weekend before calling him. he
picked after the second beep.
“hello Christian, how are you?”
he asked.
“I’m fine” I responded
“I hope you are getting better”
“yes” I responded
“Mustack” I called
“yes Christian” he answered
“when you told Sylvia that I
like her, what did she say?” I
asked, waiting curiously for
his answer.
“I didn’t tell her anything. so
you believed I told her. how
would I have told her when
you didn’t give your consent.
that wouldn’t be nice for me to
do. I was just pulling your leg.
I only went to ask her if her
micro economics note was
complete” Mustack said
“so you didn’t tell her?” I
asked
“no I didn’t” he answered.
I heaved a sigh of relief and
thanked God silently.
“okay I will call you later” I
said
I ended the call and sighed. I
was happy that he didn’t tell
her, but at the same time
disappointed in myself. I was
disappointed that I could be so
stupid to have missed lectures
for a whole week, without any
concrete reason.
Just when I was about to lie on
my bed, I heard a knock on my
door. I wasn’t expecting
anyone. I knew it wasn’t
Sharon, because we had
already agreed to postpone the
tutorial until next week. I
walked to the door and open
it. I froze when I saw Kate
standing at the door with
smiles on her face. I never
remember telling her where I
stay.
“hi Christian”
“hi” I managed to respond.
“you are surprised to see me
right?” she asked
I nodded
“well, you will find out later,
how I got to know where you
stay” she said, walking into
my room without allowing me
to usher her in.
She went straight to my bed
and sat on it. I locked my door
and went to sit on the plastic
chair. I won’t make the same
mistake of sitting beside her
on my bed, because I knew
how nervous I was when I sat
beside Sharon on that bed.
She lay on her back and
spread her hands.
“I’m so tired” she said
I quickly got a wine from my
cupboard and gave to her. she
sat up and collected the drink.
“thank you” she said
I went back to sit on the chair
i was previously occupying
while she sipped from the
wine. I took a book on my
desk, open a page and fixed
my gaze on it, pretending like
I was reading. it was better to
pretend like I was reading than
to stay in the same room with
her and couldn’t start a
conversation. After 5minutes
of silence, she spoke.
“you stay here alone?” she
asked
“yes” I responded and fixed
my gaze back on the book I
was holding.
“why is your room so hot?”
she asked, fanning herself
with a book.
she unbuttoned the upper
button of her blouse, revealing
her cleavage. I tried not to look
at her, because it wouldn’t be
nice if she caught me looking
at her cleavage.
After another 5minutes of
silence, she spoke again.
“are you expecting someone?”
she asked
“no” I answered
“I will soon be leaving o” she
said
“okay” I responded
After a while of deafening
silence, she spoke.
“do you always sit all day on
that chair?” she asked
“no” I responded
After a while, she buttoned her
blouse which she had earlier
unbuttoned. She stood up from
my bed, carried her handbag
and walked to the door.
“are you leaving?” I asked
she didn’t reply. I stood up
immediately and walked to me
her.
“let me see you off” I said
“don’t bother” she cut in
immediately
I could see the look of
disappointment on her face
when she said that. she left my
room without sparing me one
last look. I stood at my door,
wondering what I could have
done wrong.

I woke up very late the
next day. I left home
without having breakfast.
by the time I got to the
school, our first lecture was
already over. I later found out
that the lecturer took
attendance in class and said
that 10marks would be
awarded for the attendance.
while I sat alone in the class
blaming myself for waking up
late, Sharon approached me.
“hi Christian, how is your
body now?” she asked.
“I’m fine now” I answered
“why are you sitting here
alone? aren’t you going for the
next lecture?” she asked.
I didn’t answer her.
she moved closer to me
“what’s the problem? you
don’t look happy” she said
“I heard that the lecturer took
attendance in class and would
award mark for it” I said
“yes that’s true” she
responded
“that means I have lost 10
marks just like that” I said
“is that why you are sad?” she
asked
“you don’t have to worry
about that. I was the one that
marked the attendance. Do you
think I would mark the
attendance without marking
you present, whether you were
in class or not”
“you marked me present” I
said happily
“yes” she responded.
I couldn’t describe how happy
I was at that moment. now I
know the benefit of having
your course rep as a friend.
“thank you very much. I’m
very grateful” I said
“okay, now that you know you
didn’t lose the mark, let’s start
going for our next lecture” she
said
I stood up immediately and we
headed straight to the class
our next lecture was holding.
we sat together during the
lecture and when the lecture
was over, she followed the
lecturer to his office.
It was already time for lunch
by the time the class ended. I
was very hungry. I didn’t have
breakfast before leaving home.
I couldn’t go to the school
cafeteria to have lunch because
I was scared of seeing Kate and
her friends in the cafeteria.
who knows what they might
demand from me this time, if
they see me in the cafeteria.
what they did to me the
previous day was still fresh in
my mind.
I tried to bear the hunger
until I get home but couldn’t. I
could hear the rumbling in my
stomach, which showed that
the worms in my stomach
were already protesting. while
I was trying to console the
worms in my stomach,
Mustack approached me.
“guy how far” he said
“I’m good and you”
“I’m good bro” he responded.
“so where are you heading” I
asked
“I’m going to the school
cafeteria to have lunch” he
responded.
‘thank God’ I said silently and
heaved a sigh of relief. Having
Mustack by my side would
boost my confidence. I was
sure I wouldn’t have to spend
on Kate and her friends when
Mustack is right beside me.
“I was about going to the
cafeteria to have lunch also” I
said to Mustack
“then let’s go together” he said
we went to the cafeteria and
ordered for food. just when we
were about to start eating,
Sylvia walked into the
cafeteria. my heart missed a
beat when I saw her. she went
to the counter to order for
food. she received her food
her went to occupy the seat at
the far left. I thought of telling
Mustack about Sylvia behavior
towards me. maybe he would
know the reason why she
behaved that way towards me.
“Mustack” I called
“yes” he answered
“Sylvia seems to be angry with
me” I said
“what happened?” he asked
“I don’t know. I paid for her
fare when I realized she was in
the same bus with me, but
instead for her to thank me,
she got mad at me” I said
“do you like her?” Mustack
asked
His question got me confused.
I was saying someone got mad
at me because I paid her fare
and he was asking if I like her.
“I never said I like her” I
responded.
“if you can’t seem to get your
mind off what she did to you,
that means you like her” he
said.
“no, I don’t like her” I said
“your behavior shows that you
like her. why not approach her
and tell her how you feel” he
said
“Mustack I don’t like her” I
said in serious tone.
“maybe I will help you talk to
her” he said.
“please don’t try it” I pleaded.
“I will. you have to learn how
to approach ladies. I have
noticed you don’t know how to
approach ladies.” he said
“please Mustack, don’t say
anything to her. I don’t like
her” I pleaded
Mustack stood up and walked
toward Sylvia. I watched as he
approached her. The moment
he sat down beside her, I stood
up immediately and took to
my heels. I ran as fast as I
could.
If she could react the way she
did when I only tried to pay
her fare, who knows how she
would react when Mustack tells
her that I like her.

I left the restuarant with
just hundred naira. what
those ladies did to me
showed that they have no
conscience. They didn’t
consider the fact that I’m a
student. I still thanked God
that the hundred naira left
with me would be enough for
me to take a bus back home.
After lecture for that day,
Sharon reminded me of our
tutorial and I assured her that
it would hold. she said she
would be coming to my place
by 6pm. I left the school
immediately to prepare myself
before she comes. I made sure
that everything in my room
were well arranged. I placed
the two plastic chairs in a spot
where it would be comfortable
for her, because I don’t think
having it close to my bed
would be comfortable for her.
Just exactly 5:45pm, my phone
started ringing. I picked the
call when I realized Sharon
was the caller.
“hello Sharon” i said
“hi Christian. I’m on my way
now”
“okay, I’m waiting” I
responded
“I will be there in ten
minutes” she said
“okay” i responded
I ended the calll and took a
deep breath. I assured myself
that all would be well. I had
prepared for this already so I
had nothing to be scared of.
15minutes later, I heard a
knock on my door and I knew
she was the one. ‘Christian
you can do this’. I said to
myself as I walked to the door.
I open the door and froze at
the beauty before me. I stared
at her open-mouthed. I knew
Sharon is a pretty lady, but
didn’t know she is as gorgeous
as the lady standing at my
door. it was as if she came to
intimidate me with her
beauty.
“will you let me in or keep
staring at me” she said when I
didn’t say a word after
opening the door.
“sorry” i said and quickly gave
way for her to enter. I locked
the door immediately she
entered. I could see her
admiring the beauty of my
room.
“wow! you have a nice place”
she said
“thanks” I responded
“please have a seat” I said
pointing at the plastic chair in
my room.
She ignored the chair I was
pointing at and went to sit on
my bed. I stood at a spot,
wondering if I was supposed to
sit beside her on my bed or
just sit on the plastic chair
instead.
“won’t you come and sit down
let’s start the tutorial” she said
when I wouldn’t move from
the spot I was standing.
“oh sorry” i said and
immediately went to sit on the
bed.
I made sure there was a
reasonable distance between
us. she brought out her
notebook from her handbag
and move closer to me. Her
closeness made me
uncomfortable. I suddenly
became nervous. this was what
I was trying to avoid. I
wouldn’t be able to tutor her if
I’m nervous. she flipped
through her notebook and
showed me a particular topic.
“I want us to start from here.
this particular topic had been
giving me headache.”
Her face was very close to
mine as she speaks. i tried not
to look at her. I wasn’t even
looking at what she was
showing me. I just fixed my
gaze on the two plastic chairs
in my room. she noticed I
wasn’t looking at what she was
showing me.
“Christian, are you paying
attention to what I’m saying”
she asked
“yes” I said, directing my gaze
to the notebook she was
holding.
“so where should we start
from?” I asked
she showed me the topic she
wanted me to teach her.
“okay you want to learn how
to use implicit differentiation
to find the marginal rate of
technical substitution” I said
“yes, but that’s not all. you
still have a lot to teach me, but
let’s start from there”
“okay, where is your pen?” I
asked
she gave me her pen and
move even closer to me,
making her head to rest on my
shoulder. My room suddenly
became too hot for me to stay.
A hot sweat rolled from my
forehead down to my neck. my
heart was pounding faster.
“can we start” she asked
“okay” I responded
“marginal rate of technical
substitution is also known as
slope of an isoquant” I paused
“okay” I continued
“An isoquant depicts the
different combination of input
K and L that can be used to
produce a specific level of
quantity Q” I paused again
“okay” I continued
“one of such…….”
“Christian!” she cut it
“why do you keep saying okay,
okay, okay. I already know all
what you are trying to explain.
I want you to move to the
calculation part. that’s where
I’m having problem”
“you see Sharon”I said calmly
“I haven’t been myself since I
returned from school today. I
have been having terrible
headache”
“why didn’t you tell me all this
while?” she asked
she placed her hand on my
forehead.
“have you taking drugs?” she
asked
“yes” I responded
“you should have told me so
that I wouldn’t have come.
your health is important and
you need to take good care of
yourself. maybe I will leave
and come back tomorrow” she
said
I heaved a sigh of relief when
she said that.
“okay. I’m really sorry” I
apologized
“you don’t have to apologize.
your health comes first”
“thanks for your
understanding” I said
“okay see you tomorrow” she
said
“see you too” I responded
she stood up, carry her bag
and left.

I stayed indoor all through
the weekend revising all
we had learnt for that
week. I kept getting
nervous as the new week drew
closer. maybe because it was
the week I would start the
tutorial with Sharon. I had
tried to assure myself that all
would be fine, but it didn’t do
much because I kept getting
nervous. how will I sit alone
with her in a room and she
wouldn’t notice I’m a shy guy.
I pray I don’t embarrass
myself when I’m with her.
The new week came and I got
prepared for my first lecture
for that week. I took the
campus shuttle that would take
me directly to the building I
was having my lecture. I didn’t
realize I was in the same bus
with my coursemate, Sylvia,
until she spoke to a lady
beside her. I made sure she
didn’t notice I was in the same
bus with her. I quickly
brought out money from my
wallet and paid for the both of
us without letting her know. I
told the driver not to collect
money from her when she
tries to pay. I believed it was
the right thing for me to do.
when we got to our
destination, she tried to pay
but the driver told her that
someone had already paid for
her. she asked who was the
person and the driver pointed
at me. that was when she
realized I was in the same bus
with her. she approached me
and glared at me. the smile I
was trying to keep on my face
disappeared immediately. I
was thinking she was coming
to thank me, but the glare she
just shot me made me
nervous. she brought out some
money from her purse and
force it into my hand.
“next time don’t try to pay for
me without my notice. I didn’t
ask for your help” she said to
me in a note of warning.
She shot me one last glance
and walked out on me. I stood
at that particular spot like a
statue, staring at the direction
she took. I tried to remember
if I had said or done anything
wrong to her before for her to
direct such anger to me, but I
couldn’t seem to remember
anything. this was too much
for me to bear. I have never
been this embarrassed all my
life. I wished I never paid for
her. I wished I had known this
would happen, I would have
avoided it. my leg suddenly
became too heavy for me to
lift. I managed to plod ahead to
where my first lecture was
holding.
All through the lecture, I didn’t
concentrate. I kept trying to
figure out what I could have
done to that lady that made
her behave that way towards
me. could it be that someone
might have said something bad
about me to her. all my effort
to figure out what I could have
done was fruitless, because I
couldn’t seem to remember
anything.
I stole glances at her from time
to time to see if she was
looking at my direction, but all
her attention seemed to be
focused on what the lecturer
in class was saying.
After lecture, I went to the
school restuarant to have
lunch. just when I was at the
counter placing my order, Kate
walked into the restuarant
with two of her friends. I
believed they had come there
to have lunch also. I tried as
much as possible to hide
behind the guy standing at the
counter with me, but my effort
was fruitless because she saw
me immediately she entered
the restuarant. she walked
towards me with her friends
right beside her.
“hi” I said immediately they
got to me.
“wow Christian! we meet
again” she said
“yeah” I responded.
“you came here to have lunch
right” she said
“not really. I’m not having my
lunch here. I’m buying in a
take away pack” I responded.
I initially wanted to have my
lunch in the restuarant, but
seeing Kate and her friends
made me changed my mind,
knowing fully well that I would
have to be on the same table
me them. That would be
deadly for me. I might just
collapse unknowingly.
“okay, but you are paying for
my lunch.” Kate said
“no problem, you can order
for anything you want” I
responded
“are you not buying for us
also?” one of her friend asked.
“you can order for anyhing
you want also” i said to her
“thanks” the lady responded
“you are welcome” I said
I waited for them to order for
whatever they wanted so that I
could foot the bill.
Just when I was about paying
for their meal, the other lady
beside Kate distracted me.
“sorry, I hope you don’t mind
paying for the one I’m taking
away” she said
My mood suddenly changed
when she made that statement.
I tried not to show the look of
disappointment on my face.
so if I pay for your meal here,
I would still pay for the one
you will take away. am I your
father?
That was what I wanted to say
but dare not say it.
“you can have anything you
want” I said against my
decision.
I watched with teary eyes as
they all place their order. the
amount of food they ordered
made me wonder if they
wanted to feed their families
with it. it was certain that I
would trek back home,
because I was sure there won’t
be any money left with me
when they are done with their
order.

On our way home,
Mustack insisted on
knowing my place since
we were heading the
same way. I took him to my
place. I stay in a room self
contain very close to the
school. I could see Mustack
admiring the interior design of
my room when we entered the
room.
“nice place you have here” he
said.
“thanks”
He fixed his gaze on the two
plastic chair beside the bed.
“wetin chair dey do for your
room?” he asked
His question got me confused.
I wanted to ask him if he
didn’t know what they are
made for. Like seriously, he
should know that it’s there for
my visitors to sit on.
“it’s there for my visitors
convenience” I answered.
he shook his head like I just
said something unbelievable.
“so if a lady visit you, you will
ask her to sit on that chair” he
said
“yes of course” I answered
“now I know you are still a
novice in this game. don’t you
know that it would be difficult
for things to happen when
she’s sitting on a chair. but
when she is sitting just beside
you on your bed, you won’t
even have to stress yourself.
the closeness between you
both would stir up things.”
All what Mustack said didn’t
make any meaning to me. All I
knew was that those chairs
were supposed to be for my
visitors convenience.
“so are you saying that you
don’t have any chair in your
room” I said
“what do I need a chair for
when there’s a bed to sit on”
he answered
I still didn’t understand what
he was saying, because I
believed those chairs were for
my visitors convenience.
“okay, since I have known
where you stay now, let me
start leaving before it get dark.
I still have something to do at
home” he said
“okay bro, no problem” I
responded.
I shook hand with him and he
left. I lay on my bed trying to
see if I could give any meaning
to what Mustack said.
The vibration of my phone
distracted me. I took the phone
and stared into the screen. my
heart missed a beat when I
saw an unknown number. I
still couldn’t explain why I
always have this fear when I
see an incoming call from an
unknown caller. I could only
think of one person as the
caller, and that’s Kate. why
would she be calling me now.
it’s hasn’t been up to an hour
we left the bar and she was
already calling. she should
have allowed me to rest first.
I quickly rehearsed a few
words I would say to her.
“hello Kate” I said immediately
I picked the call.
“hi Christian, this is not Kate,
this is Sharon”
My heart missed a beat at the
mention of Sharon.
“Sharon” I mumbled
How did she get my number. I
didn’t remember giving her
my number. This was the part
I hated the most. I hated being
caught unaware. when I had
already rehearsed what to say
to Kate, thinking she was the
caller, it now happened to be
Sharon. What would I say to
her.
“how are you?” she asked
” hello………. hello………. hello
I can’t hear you clearly. the
line is breaking” I said, making
it look like I couldn’t hear
what she was saying.
“hello Christian, can you hear
me now?” she asked.
“hello…………. hello………………
hello I can’t hear you” I said
and ended the call before she
could speak further.
Before I pick a lady’s call, I
always made sure that I
already have prepared speech
in order to reduce my
nervousness. I didn’t rehearse
any word to say to Sharon
because I wasn’t expecting her
to be the caller. I quickly
rehearsed what I would say
when she calls back. my phone
started ringing almost
immediately. I took a deep
breath and pick the call.
“hello” I said calmly
“hello Christian, can you hear
me now? this is Sharon”
“Sharon, how are you?” I asked
“I’m fine. you just left the class
like that. you didn’t even allow
us to conclude our discussion
before leaving” she said
“I’m sorry Sharon. I received
an important call while in
class. I just had to leave before
class ended” I said
“okay, I just what to remind
you of our tutorial on
Monday” she said
“I’m aware” I said
“okay, I will talk to you later”
she said
“how did you get my number?”
I asked
I needed to know how she got
my number, because I didn’t
remember giving her my
number.
“I got it from joy” she
responded
“okay, I see” I said
“talk to you later then”
“okay” she responded
I ended the call and heaved a
sigh of relief.

All of a sudden, Mustack
and the lady stood up
and was walking
towards me. My heart
kept pounding fast as I
wondered what they might be
coming for. They got to me
and sat down on the available
seat beside me.
“Christian this is Kate. she’s
also a student of our school.
she’s a micro-biology student”
Mustack introduced her to me
immediately they settled down.
“Kate this is Christian, my
coursemate” he continued
“hi Christian” Kate said,
stretching her hand to me for
a handshake, with smiles on
her face.
“hi Kate” I shook hands with
her, making sure that the
smile on my face was visible.
Mustack and Kate continued
their conversation from where
they stopped, leaving me out
of it. He must have brought
her to our table so that it
would not look like he had
forgotten about me. I thanked
God that they didn’t involve
me in their conversation,
because the lady beside me
would have noticed that I was
shy from the way I would
speak. I only sat down quietly,
listening to their conversation,
trying to see if I could pick
one or two lines from what
Mustack was saying. so that I
could use it on a lady when
I’m in difficult position. I tried
to take note of the things that
made her laughed out loud.
All of a sudden, Mustack phone
started ringing. he brought out
his phone and stared into the
screen.
“I’m sorry, give me a minute”
he said to Kate.
“okay” Kate responded
He stood up and walked out of
the bar, leaving me alone with
Kate. my heart started
pounding fast immediately
Mustack left.
Why must his phone ring
now. I blamed the caller who
chose to call him at the wrong
time.
I knew I was supposed to
engage Kate in a conversation
until Mustack returns, but how
was I supposed to do that?
how will I start? what will I
say? my mind was even blank
as I sat alone with her.
While I was still trying to
come up with how I would
start a conversation with her,
she took her phone from her
bag and busied herself with it.
I heaved a sigh of relief and
thank God for bringing me out
of my predicament. At least
her phone would keep her
busy until Mustack returns. I
prayed silently that she should
not stop whatever she was
doing with her phone.
All of a sudden, she dropped
her phone in her bag and
faced me. what I prayed for
not to happen was finally
before me.
I took a deep breath, trying to
summon all the courage I
could. I tried my best not to
show that I was nervous,
because it would be more
embarrassing if she realizes
I’m a shy guy.
“so you are an economics
student?” she asked
“yes” I responded
“that means you will be very
stingy” she said
I wanted to correct the
statement she just made. I
wanted to tell her that
economist are not stingy. We
only try to put our resources
to the best use. we only try to
be economical. I wanted to tell
her that we only try to
maximise satisfaction from
our limited resources, but all I
could say to her was “that’s
not true o”
“what’s not true?” she asked
“are you saying that you are
not stingy?”
“no, i’m not” I defended
myself
“we would see about that” she
said
I really didn’t know what she
meant by ‘we would see about
that’, but I was not going to
start thinking about it, because
my head was full already.
“okay” I responded
“I’m a micro-biology student.
you know my faculty right?”
she asked
“not really” I answered
“it’s very close to the faculty
of engineering. just opposite
Gtbank” she said
“wow! it’s even close to my
faculty. that means we would
be seeing each other often” I
said
I liked the way our
conversation was going. I was
not nervous. maybe because
she was doing most of the
talking.
“sure” she responded
just immediately, Mustack
came back and sat on the seat
he was previously occupying. I
heaved a sigh of relief when I
saw him. atleast I was able to
engage Kate in a conversation
until he returned.
“I hope I didn’t keep you
waiting” he said to Kate
“not at all. Christian had made
sure that I didn’t get bored”
she said
My face curved in a smile
when I heard that, and I gave
myself a thumb up for doing a
nice job.
“good. I like that” Mustack said
“we will start leaving now. I
have something to do at
home” he said to Kate
“okay, no problem” Kate
responded
Mustack stood up and I stood
up immediately with him
“okay Kate, see you later in
school” I said
“see you too” she responded
“let me have your number”
Another lady asking for my
number. I don’t like giving my
number to ladies, because I
usually don’t have anything to
say when they called. she gave
me her phone and I typed my
number. i gave her back her
phone when I was done.
we left the restuarant
immediately.

All eyes in class turned
to my direction
immediately they heard
my score. I felt
embarrassed at the number of
eyes staring at me. All of a
sudden, a crowd had formed
round us. My test script kept
going from one hand to the
other. The number of
questions that I was asked got
me frustrated. I only tried to
force a smile to conceal my
frustration. I was relieved
when a lecturer walked into
the class. Everyone went back
to their different seat. The
lecturer went straight to the
business of the day without
preamble. He was quite a strict
lecturer. His class was not
interactive at all. He asked no
question and didn’t entertain
any question. I seemed to like
his method of teaching
because it would save me the
stress of answering question
in class.
I sneaked out of the class just
few minutes to the end of the
lecture to avoid any question
from my coursemates. I left the
faculty building and was about
going home. I heard someone
screaming my name just when
I was about going out from the
school gate. I turned to see my
coursemate, Mustack running
towards me. Mustack was the
same guy I walked into the
class with today. He was
gasping for air when he got to
me.
“guy how far” I said to him
“guy you be flash?” he asked
“it hasn’t been up to a minute
I saw you leaving the class and
you are already at the school
gate. why didn’t you wait until
lecture was over before leaving
the class?” he asked
“the lecturer was already
rounding up when I left” I
answered
“so where are you heading?”
he asked
“home” I answered
“you are going home. have you
forgotten today is Friday?” he
asked
His question made me
confused. I never remembered
planning to do anything with
him on Friday.
“what’s happening on Friday?”
I asked
“are you asking me like you
don’t know” he said.
“don’t you know that we are
supposed to be out there
having fun on a Friday”
This guy didn’t know the kind
of person I am, because if he
knew, he wouldn’t be taking
about going out to have fun.
“there is this particular bar
very close to school, it’s
always lively on Fridays. Let’s
go there so that I can buy you
a drink”
On a normal day, I would have
declined his offer, because I
don’t like being in such places.
I’m never comfortable being in
such places, but this might be
my opportunity of making
friends with him. I have
always been a loner since I
gained admission into the
university. so I would not
reject his offer.
“Are you sure that the place
will be lively just like you
said?” i asked trying to show
interest in his offer
“you just have to see the place.
it is always flocked with
ladies” he replied
My heart missed a beat at the
mention of ladies but I tried to
look calm.
“Wow! that would be great
then” I said masking my
nervousness with a smile
“then let’s start going there
already” he said smiling also
“alright bro” I responded
We headed straight to the bar
and just like he said, the place
was very lively. the number of
ladies I saw when we walked
in increased my heartbeat. we
located an empty seat at the
front and sat down. Mustack
beckoned the barman and he
approached us immediately.
“what will you like to have?”
the barman asked Mustack
“give me Goldberg” Mustack
answered
“what will you like to drink?”
Mustack asked me
“anything” I answered
He looked at me in disgust
“is anything a name of drink?”
he asked
“why are you behaving like a
shy lady who went on a date
for the first time with her
crush” he said to me.
His words hit a vital part in
my body. He just referred to
me as a shy lady. Even when I
tried as much as possible not
to show my nervousness, he
still noticed it.
I could only force a smile.
“okay give me Goldberg” I
answered.
The barman left immediately
to get our drinks while
Mustack and I engaged in a
conversation.
After few minutes, I saw
Mustack looking at a particular
direction. I followed the
direction he was looking at to
realize he was actually looking
at a particular lady at the far-
right.
“that lady is very beautiful” he
said to me
“yeah” I responded
uninterested
“I won’t forgive myself if I
don’t get her number” he said
“do you know her?” I asked
“must I know her to get her
number” he answered
Mustack stood up and was
walking towards the lady
“where are you going?” I asked
“to get her number of course”
he answered
I watched as Mustack
approached the lady and sat
beside her. just after few
minutes of taking to her, I
could see the lady laughing out
loud. what could he have said
to her that was making her
laugh? I suddenly wished I was
like Mustack, but no, I’m
Christian, the shy guy. When
will I ever make a lady laugh
just the way Mustack did to
that lady?
All of a sudden, Mustack and
the lady stood up and was
walking towards me. I could
hear my heart pounding in my
chest as I wondered what they
might be coming for.

I woke up very late the
next day. I quickly took
my bath and got prepared
for school. I left home
immediately without having
breakfast. I was supposed to
have lecture by 8:am but it
was already 8:15am. I got to
the building the lecture was
holding and peeped through
the window. The lecture was
already going on and the
lecturer could be seen at the
podium impacting knowledge
on the students with
enthusiasm. Every student
focused there attention on the
lecturer standing close to the
door, and that was exactly the
same place I was supposed to
walk in through. I was sure
everyone would focus there
attention on me when I walk
in, because there’s no how I
would walk into that class
without being noticed. I stood
at the window for close to
10minutes trying to come up
with an idea of how I would
walk into the class without
being noticed. I felt a hand on
my shoulder, and I turned to
see my coursemate standing
beside me. I was relieved it
was a guy.
“are you not going in?” he
asked
“I was about going in” I
answered
“are you just coming?” I asked
“yes” he answered
“let’s go in before we miss the
important part of the lecture.”
he said
“okay” I responded
He walked ahead while I
followed behind him. I tried as
much as possible to hide
behind him as we walked into
the class. I never removed my
gaze from the floor until I sat
down at the back seat. I took a
deep breath and silently
thanked the guy who showed
up when i needed him. I’m not
sure I would have been able to
walk into the class alone. I
would have stayed outside
until the end of the lecture.
The lecturer continued with
the lecture. After few minutes
of listening, I was able to
understand what was being
taught. I was quite good in
maths, and the course that was
being taught was actually
‘introduction to mathematics
for economist’. Did I
mentioned earlier that I’m an
economics student.
when the class was over, the
lecturer handed a brown
envelope to our course rep,
which I believed contained our
test script we did in the
previous class. To make matter
worse for me, our course rep
happened to be a lady. I had
never approached her to get
any information from her.
Even when I needed an
important information which I
believed only her could
provide, I still didn’t approach
her. Her beauty alone is
intimidating. she distributed
the script back to the students.
just as the scripts went round,
I could hear murmur from
every corner of the class
which means the scores were
very bad. She had already
shared all the scripts but I still
didn’t get mine. I wanted to
bring to her notice that I had
not received my script but
didn’t know how to approach
her. I only sat on my seat
staring at everyone faces as
they stared at their script with
a frown.
My course rep started walking
towards me, immediately she
was done distributing the
script. I tried not to feel
nervous, because she might
not actually be coming to meet
me. she got to me and sat next
to me. I was very nervous but
tried not to show it.
“Christian how did you do it?”
she asked immediately.
“do what” I asked confused.
she brought out a script and
showed to me.
“while everyone was scoring
less than 10, you scored 23.
How did you do it” she asked
I looked at the script in her
hand and realized it was
actually my script and I scored
23 just like she said. but I still
didn’t know why she did not
give me my script when she
was sharing it and had to
bring it to me personally.
“you are really brilliant” she
continued when I didn’t
respond
“Anyway, I just want to tell
you that you just officially
made yourself my private
tutor. you will be tutoring me
starting from next week.”
My eyes widened in shock
when she said that. Me that
cannot even talk to a lady for a
minute will now sit down for
close to an hour to tutor her.
she better rethink was she just
said. what kind of difficult
position did she want to put
me in. I better look for a way
to decline.
“so how will it be comfortable
for you? will I be coming to
your place for the tutorial, or
you will be coming to my
place?” she asked.
None of the options seem
comfortable for me, I wanted
to say that but dare not say it.
“anyhow you want it” I
answered against my decision.
“Okay, we will be using both
my place and yours for the
tutorial. That would be fairer
right?” she asked
“yes” I answered
Just when I was still dealing
with the lady beside me, Joy
came and joined us. she sat at
my other side, making it two
ladies sitting beside me. I
haven’t been myself sitting
beside my course rep, and Joy
had also joined us, making my
blood pressure to rise.
“hi Sharon” Joy greeted our
course rep
“hi Joy” Sharon replied
“Christian how is your body
now?” Joy asked me
“fine” I answered briefly
She saw my script with Sharon
and collected it. she stared at it
“23!” she exclaimed
“Christian you scored 23”
All eyes in class turned to our
direction immediately they
heard my score. I felt
embarrassed at the number of
eyes staring at me.

I got home and freshened
up. I lay on my bed and
stare blankly at the
ceiling. The event of the
day flashed through my mind
and my mood suddenly
changed. I felt bad that I
couldn’t answer a question
confidently in class. Even
when joy approached me
nicely, I couldn’t even say a
word to her. Why am I always
like this? will I ever be
confident enough to speak
with a lady without feeling
nervous? when will I stop
behaving this way? Am I the
only one in this world with
this kind of personality? what
did I do wrong to be born with
this kind of trait? Am I cursed
or something? It seems like
i’m the only one in the world
with this trait. I have never
come across any shy guy all
my life. where did I get this
kind of trait from?
I was lost in thought.
The vibration of my phone
brought me back to reality. I
stretched my hand to my table
to get my phone. I stared into
the screen and saw that it was
an unknown number. My
heart missed a beat when I
realized I gave Joy my number.
I sat up immediately still
staring at my phone. I quickly
rehearsed a few words I would
say to her when I pick the call.
I took a deep breath and placed
my hand close to the green
button. While I was still
contemplating on whether to
pick the call, it suddenly
stopped ringing. it started
ringing almost immediately.
My phone suddenly became
too heavy for me to hold. I
needed to pick the call. I won’t
allow my personality to drive
away someone who seems to
care about me.
I summoned all the courage in
me to pick the call. I placed the
phone on my ear and said “hi”
in the nicest way I could.
“Guy you didn’t try at all. you
have forgotten about me. you
can’t even call me” the voice at
the other end said.
it wasn’t actually a lady’s voice. it was a
guy’s voice. I felt relieved
when I heard the voice.
“please who am I speaking
with?” I asked
“so you don’t recognize my
voice?”
The voice rang a well. I knew I
have heard that voice before. I
thought for a while.
“Daniel” I called
“yes it’s Daniel. I thought you
won’t recognize my voice.” he
said
“wow! so it’s you Daniel. long
time” I said happily
“yeah, long time” he
responded
“How are you?” I asked
“I’m fine and you”
“I’m fine too” I responded
“so how is school?” he asked
“school is fine”
“I hope those girls in school
are not giving you problem”
“not at all” I responded
“is this your number”
“yes this is my new number. I
said I should call you, since
you don’t want to call me”
“Daniel you know that’s not
true. if I had your number, I
would have called you” I said
“okay o, I just said I should
hear from you”
“you did very well. I’m very
grateful. I will save your
number.”
“okay then, we will talk later.”
Daniel said
“okay, thanks for the call”
I ended the call and stared at
my phone screen with smiles
on my face. it was good to
hear from Daniel. Daniel is my
childhood friend and a very
good adviser. I placed my
phone on the table and lay on
my bed.
Just immediately I placed the
phone on the table, it started
vibrating again. I took the
phone from the table and
picked the call without looking
at the caller.
“hello Daniel” I said into the
phone
“Christian” the caller called
I froze when I heard a lady’s
voice. I slowly removed the
phone from my ear and stared
into the screen. The number
was different from Daniel’s
number. I slowly placed the
phone back on my ear. I could
feel my heart pounding in my
chest.
“hello” I said calmly
“Christian how are you? This
is Joy”
“Joy. how……. how are you?” I
stammered
“Christian you don’t sound too
well. should I come over to
your place?”
“No, no” I cut in immediately
“I’m not at home”
“where did you go to?” she
asked
“I’m in the hospital”
“hospital!” she exclaimed
“is it that serious?”
What did I just say? I couldn’t
believe I just told her I was in
the hospital. I quickly took
back those words
“no Joy, I mean I went to get
some drugs from a pharmacy.”
“okay, how is your body” she
asked
“I’m fine now. I will call you
back. I’m on a busy road right
now” I said
“okay” she responded
I ended the call and took a
deep breath. I lay on my bed
and didn’t know when I slept
off.

Just as I slowly stood up, I
could see over a hundred
eyes boring holes on my body.
I tried not to turn my head,
because my mind could go
blank if my eyes meet with
any lady in class. I cursed the
devil silently who had
succeeded in putting me in
such situation.
“will you answer my question
or get out of this class” Dr.
Mike barked when I didn’t say
anything after a while of
standing
“erm………erm……….” I
stammered
“actually………. I……….I”
That was the last words I could
remember saying. I knew I was
still speaking, but could not
remember what I was saying,
because my mind was far from
what I was saying. All my
attention was focused on the
eyes in class boring holes on
my body, especially the ladies.
I kept wondering what might
be on their minds as they
stared at me. could they be
thinking bad of me. could they
be saying I’m not smart
enough to be in this class. All
these and other thought
occupied my mind.
It was when I heard a big
round of applause from the
class that I realized I had
answered the question. I
focused my attention back on
the lecturer standing in my
front. He observed me for a
while before speaking.
“so you knew the answer all
this while and you didn’t
answer” he said
I kept mute
“why did you wait until I point
you before you answered the
question?” he asked
I remained mute
“Anyway, I will pardon you
this time, because I like the
way you answered the
question. you gave a detailed
explanation just the way I
want it. what’s your name?”
he asked
“Christian” I answered sharply.
“okay Christian. Once you
know the answer to a
question, don’t wait until you
are called before you answer
the question. is that clear?”
I nodded in affirmation
“good” he said
“you can have your seat now”
I sat down immediately and let
out a hot breath which I didn’t
know I was holding all this
while.
Dr. Mike walked back to the
podium and continued with
the lecture. All other questions
he asked were answered by
other students without delay.
The class went on smoothly
and he joked from time to
time which made us laughed
out loud. I later found Dr. Mike
to be an interesting lecturer.
After lectures for that day, I
quickly rushed to the school
restuarant to have lunch
before I collapse. it’s as if the
few words I said in class had
drained all my energy. I didn’t
even allow my food to be
placed on my table before I
started devouring it.
After a while of eating, I heard
someone screaming my name
from behind. my heart missed
a beat when I realized it was
the voice of a lady. I slowly
turned to see a lady standing
at the entrance with smiles on
her face. she must be my
coursemate for her to know
my name. she must have
heard it when I mentioned it
to Dr. Mike. she started
walking towards me. my
heartbeat kept increasing in
geometric progression with
every step she took. she got to
me and sat opposite me.
“hi Christian” she said smiling
I couldn’t say anything. I
couldn’t even stare at her. I
just kept staring at my food on
the table.
” hello” she stressed the word
when I didn’t respond.
I waved at her and said “hi” in
a whisper. I was sure she
didn’t hear that, because it
was not audible enough for
her to hear.
She observed me for a while.
“Christian are you okay?” she
asked
“yes” i responded sharply
“okay, i just want to thank you
for answering Dr. Mike’s
question in class today. you
are our saviour. who knows
how many students he would
have sent out of his class if
not for you. I’m very sure I
would have been among those
that would be sent out because
I had no idea of the answer.
you did really well. by the
way, I’m Joy.” she said
I didn’t respond. I just kept
staring into air.
“are you sure you are okay?”
she asked
“I…….. I………. I want to go
home. I feel dizzy” I said
She quickly stood up from her
seat and sat closer to me. she
placed her hand on my
forehead.
“Are you sick?” she asked
Her closeness made me more
uncomfortable.
“I’m not sick. I’m just tired. I
need to rest.” I answered.
“okay you can start leaving.
make sure you take care of
yourself” she said feeling
concerned.
I stood up immediately and
was about heading for the
door.
“wait” she said walking
towards me
“let me have your number so
that I can call to check on you”
I didn’t like the idea of giving
her my number. what am I
suppose to say to her when
she calls. she stretched her
phone to me and I collected it.
I typed my number and gave
her back her phone.
” okay I will call you” she said
“I hope you are coming to
school tomorrow?” she asked
I nodded in affirmation
“okay see you then”
I waved at her and left the
restuarant immediately.


Sometimes I just wonder
why I was created this
way. why I can’t seem to
be comfortable when I’m
in the midst of people,
especially ladies. I had been
this way ever since I was a kid.
I’m already on my early
twenties but my issue is not
getting better. It had even
worsened. I can’t believe that
at this stage of my life, I still
don’t know how to approach
ladies. I had come in contact
with a number of nice ladies
that I love and would love to
spend the rest of my life with,
but due to my shy nature, I
could not approach them and
had lost them all. I still can’t
believe that I’m still a virgin at
this stage of my life. Not that
I’m a saint or something. I had
always wanted to take this
virginity of a thing off me, but
don’t know how to go about it.
I had never dated any lady all
my life. I dare not tell my
friends that I’m still a virgin,
because they would all laugh at
me. I always brag about how I
made a lady beg me to get her
laid whenever I’m with them,
but in reality, no such thing
had happened.
I always believed I could cope
with my shy and introverted
nature, but not until I gained
admission into the university.
it was when I gained
admission into the university
that I realized there is place
for people like me in the
university. it’s either I blend
in and associate with people or
be forever isolated.
it’s been three weeks since I
gained admission into the
university. We had already
completed the registration
process and lectures had also
started. The way I always see
students in my department
discussing and associating
with one another, made me
wondered if they had known
one another already, before
they gained admission. I
wished I could be like them
and interact more with my
coursemate, but my
introverted nature wouldn’t
allow me. I always try my best
not to be noticed in class. I
dare not raise my hand to
answer any question asked by
a lecturer, even though I knew
the answer.
One day in class, just
immediately we settled down
for lectures, our introduction
to statistics lecturer, Dr. Mike
walked into the class to
introduce his course. After
5minutes of speaking, he
asked a question which no one
could answer. He was very
disappointed and decided not
to speak further until someone
answer his question. I knew
the answer to Dr. Mike
question but dare not stand up
to answer his question. Just
imagining the number of eyes
that would be boring holes on
my body when I stand to
answer the question could
make my mind go blank.
Dr. Mike stared at us from the
podium while we stared back
at him, with no one making
attempt to answer his
question. After the long silence
in the class, he decided to
speak.
“so out of over a hundred
students in this class, no one
can answer the question I
asked” he said
Everyone in class remained
silent.
“this class can’t continue until
someone answer my question.
How am I suppose to teach
you if you don’t know the
basic of this course” he said
The class still remained silent.
He stared silently at us. After a
while if silence, an idea
crossed his mind.
“I know what to do” he said
walking closer to us.
“I will start pointing you to
answer the question and once
you fail to give me the right
answer, you will leave this
class and never attend any of
my classes for the rest of this
semester.” he said in serious
tone.
A faint murmur could be
heard in the class
“we you all keep shut” he
shouted in angry tone.
The look on his face showed
that he was very serious with
what he said.
I wished someone could just
answer his question and take
me out of the tensed situation
i was in. The class had
suddenly became too hot for
me to stay. I prayed silently
that God should divert the
lecturer’s attention away from
anything that would make him
notice me in class. Not that I
didn’t know the answer, but I
just couldn’t face the whole
class.
I could see the lecturer staring
at everyone faces, looking for
who to point. he stared at my
direction and a shiver went
down my spine. I suddenly
started sweating profusely.
“Hey, you over there” he said
pointing at my direction.
Even though he was pointing
at my direction, I was so sure
he was not pointing directly to
me. because there is no how
he could have pin-point me
out of over a hundred students
in class. so I looked back to
confirm who he was pointing
at. the person he was pointing
at must be behind me.
“why are you looking back?
I’m referring to you” he said
referring to me
“is it me sir?” I asked to be
sure he was referring to me.
“no, it’s me” he mimicked me
“come on stand up and answer
my question” he barked.
I suddenly became weak when
I realized he was actually
referring to me. how was I
suppose to stand and answer
question in a class of over
hundred students.
Just as I slowly stood up, I
could see over a hundred eyes
boring holes on my body. I
tried not to turn my head,
because my mind could go
blank if my eyes meet with
any lady in class. I cursed the
devil silently who had
succeeded in putting me in
such situation.
“will you answer my question
or get out of this class” Dr.
Mike barked when I didn’t say
anything after a while of
standing
“erm………erm……….” I
stammered
To be continued..